Archive for April, 2009


My favorite studio

April 25, 2009

I took my practice to my favorite studio (my deck)  this morning.  You just cannot beat doing yoga outside and, if it’s an option for you, I highly suggest you try it.  This morning was just so beautiful I couldn’t help myself.  The sky was the perfect blue and there were soft, gorgeous clouds slowly drifting by.  The sun was warm and inviting and the breeze carried the perfume of the lilacs straight to me.  It was all I could do to get myself out of Savasana and go about my day – it was pure bliss.

Step into the Sunlight
Feel the pain wash away
Enter in the Soul-light
Just BE in today.

Forget all emotion
Put your trust in the day
Let the past rush on by you
Put your Self in THE WAY.

one & infinite – lynne milum – universal light

If you’re looking for music to add to your outdoors practice, YogaZone has a great 2 disc set available at Amazon or, if you’re lucky as I am, at your local library.



Goings on…

April 24, 2009

It’s been a long time since I’ve posted, but it’s not because I’ve had nothing to write about.  Truth is, I’ve been so busy living I’ve had very little time to write it all down except in my private journal which you folks don’t get to lay your peepers on!

My baby boy turns 7 tomorrow.  I cannot believe that.  How in the world does it go so fast?  I ask my Mom this all the time and she says things like, "Yeah, I know, my baby is 33!"  Unreal.   Stealth only has a few things on his wish list for his birthday, but the number one thing he wants and has wanted for a long time is a grappling hook.  YES.  A Grappling hook.  JEEBUS.  The only thing saving us from this nightmare is we told him that he cannot have one until he learns to climb a rope.  Guess what he’s obsessed with now?   Grooooooooooooannnn.

Sobriety is an interesting thing.  It’s wonderful, don’t get me wrong.  It’s unbelievably wonderful!  I used to think, “Sweet jesus on toast, how could life possibly be as much fun if you have to be totally sober all the time?”  I was right – life isn’t as much fun sober – it’s so much more fun!  Things are real.  Things are clear.  Things are bright and awesome.  Even the things that suck suck more clearly and for much less time.  Sleep is better, life is better, everything is better.  Well, almost everything.  Learning to live life sober is not so hard.  Learning to live life with the folks who are trying to learn how to live life with you sober is hard.  REALLY damned hard.  The whole relationship is different for them, too.  I just keep breathing and praying and meditating and doing what I have to do.  Believe. Have faith.

The universe is smiling on me big and bright.  I fully believe that your intention governs your reality.  Have faith, believe it all happens for a reason, believe that things happen in the time in which they are meant to happen, be patient.  It all works.  I’ve been doing a lot of yoga for several months now.  Probably 4-6 times a week.  I started doing yoga 15 years ago or so, but not too terribly regularly all the time.  In fact there were years when I didn’t touch a mat (what tragic and sad years those were!)  It’s always been important to me and I have always felt a deep connection with it and have held a passion for it deep in my soul.  It’s the answer to almost everything for me – head to the mat.  You just cannot put it into words unless you do it, so I’m not even going to try.  Anygetbackontrack, I’ve always wanted to be an instructor.  Not just someone who knows some poses and leads folks through them, but someone who knows the philosophy and history behind it, the Sanskrit, the whole nine yards.  Finding a training and getting a foot in the door always eluded me. How?  When?  Where?  I started dreaming about it.  I started imagining it.  I started breathing it, dreaming it, loving it, eating it.  I would head to the mat with that intention in mind.  I meditated on it.  And I had faith.  After my class on Wednesday, one of my instructors pulled me aside to get to know a bit more about me.  After chatting for a few minutes, I took a deep breath and put my desires out into the universe verbally – I told her of my desire to be a teacher.  She smiled and looked at me and told me of a training that is coming to my town this summer and she said I would be wonderful, suggested I look at the website and sign up because "Sarah, it is very clear that this is your calling."  I looked and, sure enough, there is a training in August that I can do.  All I would have to do is save up some money.  Not easy in this economy, but possibly doable.  Again, I put it out into the universe, again I stated my intention, again I had faith.  And then I got a message from a former client – she’s due in July and wants to do the paperwork.  My fee for her birth will more than pay for the training.  Amazing.  Just amazing!

I’m kind of hooked on Twitter.  @kohlmama.

I have found some new websites that I love love love.  Some serious, some seriously funny:

I’ve also found some music that is new to me that I really love.  I suggest you all find and listen to some:

Little Joy

Belle & Sebastian

Mason Jennings

The Kooks

The Fratellis

The Strokes

The Arctic Monkeys

I went shopping today for Stealth’s birthday presents.  Got blisters on my feet from new shoes.  I swear, this is why we are all meant to be barefoot.  But .. um, only of us with clean feet, which I guess, after awhile, would mean none of us…  Carry on…

Got a new van last week.  New to me, that is.  YAY!!  Getting personalized plates.  It already smells like Nag Champa.  It’s purple.  It’s perfect.   Ahhhhhhh..

Speaking of the van, I have to get my tush into it and pick up the kiddos!  Have a great weekend, folks.  Kiss your family, thank your lucky stars, and enjoy life – it’s already later than you think.


Happeh Birfday tu Meeez!

April 15, 2009

It’s been a wonderful day so far.  A zillion gorgeous roses last night, sleeping in, coffee in bed, yummy breakfast (bacon, eggs, biscuits,) wireless desktop set, zillions of birthday wishes.  We’re going on a hike soon, and we’ll have dinner out.    There are cupcakes to be eaten and I’m gonna splurge and get myself some NA beer, and maybe we’ll have a fire tonight.  Sushi on Saturday with DDFF, new (to me) van in the next two days and personalized plates coming, too.  YIPPEE!!

I’m smiling ear to ear – it’s great to be alive!



April 9, 2009

I got a text from my sister last night commenting that she was surprised that I haven’t pimped out my birthday yet here on the blog.  It’s been my style to make countdowns and reminders and all of that.  Birthdays are important to me.  Always have been, always will be.  This year, however, it seems a bit different. This year, I’m different.

In less than a week, I’ll be 33.  I am so excited about it it’s silly!  I don’t really know why for sure, but I am almost 100% positive that it’s because of the number.  33 is really an amazing number!

3 is the Magic Number, of course, and there’s 2 of them!

I love all numbers that are divisible by 11.

33 is fun to write, to type, and to say.

3 is a very yogic number.  Typically, in a yoga practice, you are supposed to do things in 3’s with the ideal number being 108.  Now, I don’t often do things 108 times (read: never,) but I can totally dig 3 times.  It feels holy, like my own version of the holy trinity.

If you are Christian (which I am not,) it’s believed that Jesus was 33 when he was crucified (very timely what with Easter coming up.)  So that was pretty much the starting place, right?  The time of redemption for all Christians?

Yeah, I kind of feel like I’m in that kind of mode, in a time of redemption, overhaul, complete change, and from here forward, all things will be different.  I’m changing, I’m growing, I’m shedding, I’m living, I’m breathing, I’m stretching, I’m learning, I’m feeling, I’m believing.  I’m redeeming… myself.

I’m doing yoga all the time.

I’m meditating and journaling all the time, too.

I cut off all my hair.

I cut out the drama.

I cut out the booze and the smoke – for life.  I’ve been totally sober for quite some time now.  Shocker, I know (big changes, I’m saying!)

I’m learning to be soft.

I really like pink and feminine things and don’t feel it’s a crime to like those along with loud music and black tattoos.

It makes perfect sense to me to find the answer by turning myself upside down and looking at my feet.  Downdog, baby, downdog.

I have no tolerance for violence and find anger to be such a waste of energy.

33 — 11 times the Magic in that number.  I’m ready, bring it.

and yes, I’m still accepting gifts.  😉


I am that I am

April 8, 2009

Soham Soham Soham Soham
Om Om Om Om Om Om Om Om Om Om
I am neither mind nor body, immortal Self I am
I am witness of three states,
I am knowledge absolute
I am fragrance in jasmine, beauty in flowers
I am coolness in the ice, flavour in the coffee
I am greenness in the leaf, hue in the rainbow
I am taste bud in the tongue, essence in the orange
I am mind of all minds, Prana of all Pranas
I am Soul of all souls, Self of all selves
I am Atman in all beings, apple of all eyes
I am Sun of all suns, Light of all lights.
I am that I am, I am that I am,
I am that I am, I am that I am.

song of vibhuti yoga – sri swami sivananda
adapted from – the bhagavad gita – 10:19-42

Happiness is …

April 4, 2009

Loka Samastha Sukino Bhavantu.
Loka Samastha Sukino Bhavantu.
Loka Samastha Sukino Bhavantu.
Om Shanti, Shanti, Shanti.

May all the beings in all the worlds be happy.
May all the beings in all the worlds be happy.
May all the beings in all the worlds be happy.
Om Peace, Peace, Peace.

vedas – world peace prayer

We are as happy as we want to be.  It is a choice.  We can easily get mired down in the muck or, like a lotus, we can rise above into beauty, light, peace, happiness.  It doesn’t have to be big stuff that makes us happy.  Sometimes it’s the littlest things that do it.  Other times, big things come into our lives and warm us up from deep within.  Just a few things this week that have made me happy as I can be …

  • Kripalu yoga 4x a week.  On Tuesdays and Thursdays, it is complimented with an aromatherapy touch by my beautiful instructor, Linda.
  • Having sushi with Megan and honoring ourselves as we put the seat cushions on the floor and ate there instead of in chairs.
  • Seeing my redbud tree bud out.
  • Walking downtown with Stealth and Duck.
  • An early birthday present (thank you, Megan.  Be sure to check out her Etsy shop and her website.)
  • B spontaneously offering to bring home dinner.
  • Al-Anon
  • Not looking like this.
  • Increased flexibility of body and mind.
  • Butch, Spook, Autumn, Robbie, Mr. Kite, and Apollo – the amazing animals we spent time with while volunteering this week at CMHS.
  • 14¢ organic dark chocolates from Peace Nook.
  • Sewing book covers in my newly revamped sewing room.
  • A new bright pink tank top.
  • Reading in bed nightly with a hot cup of tea and a heating pad warming the sheets.
  • Curry Cauliflower soup
  • Bird songs
  • Daily affirmations
  • lilac candles
  • a visit from my brother
  • doing something special as a surprise for him (I’ll write about it when I know he’s gotten it.)
  • Cowbell
  • Finding a long lost DVD
  • Buying a new book of daily meditations
  • Red toenails
  • reading aloud with my children
  • spa music
  • adding a 2nd gym location
  • gaining acceptance and continuing to replace resentments with forgiveness.
  • Hank kisses

What is bringing you happiness right now?


Mirror Mirror

April 2, 2009

The sun shines down,
and its image reflects a thousand
different pots filled with water.

The reflections are many,
but they are each reflecting the same sun.

Similarly, when we come to know who we truly are,
we will see ourselves in all people.


Last night I spent the evening with a wonderful girlfriend and Dr. Drew Pinski.  Okay, well, we had to share Dr. Drew with about a hundred other people, although we did get to meet him personally and have some pictures taken.  Anyway, the whole night was just fantastic.

Over some yummy sushi and endless glasses of water, M and I came to see that so much of our lives parallel each other.  From the most basic of things to the more intimate, personal moments of growth and grief, we seem to be walking on paths that are side by side.  Every few moments we just burst into near hysterical giggle fits because, really, when does this happen to folks?  When do you meet with someone and when you look at them you see yourself?

It happens when you start being who you really, authentically are.  Or, apparently, it happens even when you are just starting to see who your authentic self.  Tired of being who others felt we should be, who we felt we should be, we have both just decided to follow our instinct and be who we are right here, right now.  Liberation!  Growth!  Peace!  Love!  Yoga!  😉

Interestingly enough, Dr. Drew talked about honoring your instinct last night.  Over and over again he touched on subjects that M and I had just discussed at dinner.  There are no coincidences.