What I’m feeling, I cannot write about. I cannot write about it because I cannot even let my brain form words for it. It’s beyond language.
Archive for November, 2005

examining the pieces
November 30, 2005
5 year old has love affair with playdoh, June wedding planned
November 30, 2005
Thanks – and good news!
November 29, 2005Thank you, everyone, for your words of concern and compassion yesterday. The post about my grandfather was something that I needed to write for myself – it just happened that I wrote it here and you all read it. I appreciate your comments and thanks so much for reaching out to me both here on this blog as well as through personal email.

Vernon
November 28, 2005My grandfather is 80 years old. He’s over 6 feet tall, has a love affair with coveralls, and has a laugh that you could identify from miles away. Grandpa can still get my father’s attention with a simple whistle – and my Dad, who’s heard the whistle for 60 years, knows that it’s his father, and no one else, whistling. My grandfather tells jokes and drinks coffee and can turn a pile of wood into art. He likes pie. He likes music. He likes Westerns. My grandfather’s name is Vernon. He is dying.

Okay, Okay, here it is!
November 26, 2005
Holiday Hullabaloo
November 25, 2005
Gratitude
November 24, 2005Listing them, folks, probably more for myself than anyone. I’m sure I’ll miss some.
Happy Thanksgiving, everyone.
- My strong healthy body that carries my where I want to go and allows me to do what I want to do.
- My heart that aches for all those in pain, leaps for joy with all those celebrating, dances in love, and hopes for the future.
- My mind that is rusted open.
- My spirit that is beyond my body, heart, and mind.
- My husband who is the perfect extension of my being, and I am the perfect extension of his.
- Our marriage, which is based on honesty, trust, openness, faith, humor, compassion, and love.
- Our children who walk on clouds and sprinkle magic wherever they go
- My family members who have humored me for nearly 30 years.
- My in-laws who took a chance on the weirdo and have loved me for 7 years and counting.
- My friends to whom I owe more than words can convey.
- My house that shelters me and my loved ones, keeps us warm and together.
- My art which gives me outlet for my creativity and keeps me sane
- My ability to stay at home with my children and educate, rather than school, them
- My career in birth – there are no words for how grateful I am to be a part of miracles on a daily basis.
- My freedom
- Food in my belly and clothes on my back
- Being 35 pounds lighter and healthier this year
- Sobriety
- Intelligence
- Passion – without it, there is no motivation. Without motivation, there is no growth.
- Forgiveness
- Pronoia
- Faith and hope
- Humor
And the list goes on…






